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Saturday, August 22, 2009

What would you do?

I never thought about how hard it would be to choose between the past and present.

Imagine if the one you loved vanished and you presumed that they died but it was hard to accept because the lack of proof. Then lets say so many years later after you have been able to rebuild a new life for yourself you have found a new love and have made a whole new life with them, then out of the blue that first love comes back rescued from the situation that made them vanish. Then they come to see you knowing that you have moved on for the most part, they know you still love them but they know that you had to let them go because you thought they were dead.

Would you fight the utter desire to want to take them back? To away with them? To be with them and pick up that love again. Or would you let go in a way but still go forward with the life that you built with out them?

I never gave much thought to something like this till after my husband and I watched a movie that had that situation presented. I thought to myself what would I do? I know I would feel the longing for the other man raging inside me and I will say that the temptation to go with him would probably be unfathomable, and then there would be the painful longing to stay with my family my husband and my beautiful daughter.

I know what I would want to say I would choose but I will never know for sure, the human body and emotions can do very unpredictable things even if some one says one thing but then confronted by that situation they end up doing the opposite.

So I have to leave this unanswered and say I don’t know what I would do. I know what I would want to do. All I have to say is I am very grateful to God that I will never have to be faced with that kind of choice.

Not even you can say for absolute certain what you would do in that situation. As humans we are ruled by our emotions in.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Heartbreaker Baby

The most beautiful sound I have ever heard sounded a few weeks ago and now every time I hear it I feel total bliss and any negative emotion that was going on at that moment just disappears.

My daughter lets out that beautiful sound that makes me forget that anything is bothering me. And I love to just sit and listen to her talk to whoever it is she sees. Then she will let out this roar of laughter that just melts my heart.

There are things that she does that may bug my like getting up at a ungodly time and stay awake just cause she wants too, but then she starts talking and weakens my irritation at that moment.

I always knew that love can do strange thing to human body, mind, emotions and strange as it may sound and be it even effects the soul. Love is the most powerful thing I my self have ever experienced. I have felt the intense power of love in its first then again when it brought me back to life but I never realized that it could go beyond that. Then it hit me with intensity beyond the power of the atom bomb, I looked into the eyes of my baby girl after she was born and I was completely disabled to the core. I knew from that moment I would do anything for her. Now I understand how and why other mothers feel when they look at their children and get that look of complete aww.